眼底星空

I guess there are so much that I wanted to say but I dunno how to. I only can show you my tears each time you tried squeezing me hard, as if squeezing my tear ducts.

I want to tell you that my tears are for you. They are trying to replace my words, saying how sorry I am. I was just standing next to you but my heart and soul weren't. I really wanted very much to ask you go, so you don't have to suffer for me. Because of me behaving this way, I am causing your misery too.
I dunno how long is this gonna take. Is this a final statement? What am I waiting for? Why is it so? Because of ...me,my past, his prescence and all the nonsenses?

I wanted to apologise so much for your love, your tenderness and all. I dunno what it takes from you to wipe my tears and tell me everything is gonna be fine.I guess deep in your heart, you know why I am behaving like this whole day. I've never been the one talking and you grew to be able to hear my unspoken, at least I think like that.
I dunno why you want to do this? I know you love me but am I worth so? I don't feel I am worth anyone's love,especially someone like you. You deserve better, better than me.

I know you haven't feel good. And I dunno how you feel when I treated you this way and you still hug me so tight and dry my tears, only thinking how painful I must have felt. I know you must have felt so much worse but you are protecting me.

I dunno what sort of creature I am.

Yan Di Xing Kong
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Axb_vEjIIXw

I am so sorry, Jason.
I just dunno what to do...